Can't sleep

Lately it's either I can't fall asleep or I can't stay asleep. The last time this happen was when mama passed away. I tried everything to fall asleep. But what worked was the "white noise" station on pandora. Whelp that's not the case this time. Like right now I have this unsettling feeling.

So what do I do when I can't sleep now. Of course I play games on my phone and google stuff. I've been playing Bubble Witch 2 and Guess the emoji. That gets old fast. Right now I've googled everything from ways to fall asleep to random words. 

I'm totally against getting prescription drugs to help me sleep. I don't want to become dependent on it. (I am in no way judging other people who are taking sleeping pills! This is just my personal opinion). Melatonin works to a point for me. Like if I keep taking it then it won't work, this is with any meds obviously. The reason I have the melatonin is because it's a natural substite. 

Actually the talk of prescription drugs just made me wonder if the reason I can't sleep is due to the fact that I'm still not sure how to cope over the loss of mama. 

When I did see someone before I left Maryland, the guy made me leave very angry, so I lost hope of getting the help I need. Now I'm not gonna go into why I left angry, very few people know the reason. So of course since mama's passing I've been doing a lot of research, and I am well aware of the fact that it can take me a bunch of tries to find the right fit with a counselor. Once I fully get settled I am gonna try the process again. 

I got a book, Motherless Daughters, I can't bring myself to read it. I'm not ready to come to terms. Logicly I know it's true and it's my new reality, but emotionally I'm not ready. I think I've diverted back to shutting my feelings out. 

Yesterday was pretty productive

Besides the fact that lately all I have been doing it twitteling my thumbs or taking the dogs to the dog park, yesterday was pretty productive.

I finally got our Comcast instal date. I totally lucked out and they will be here tomorrow afternoon right after the movers are done. YAY FOR WIFI!!! Also the rep totally hooked us up!! If you know me then you know I love a good deal! $10 off a month for the first year, upgraded to the x1 platform for free, free install, all the movies channels free for 3 months then Showtime we get for a year for free, and upgraded our router. I am so glad that we get our stuff and wifi back tomorrow. 

So once A got home from work we needed to go to Walmart to pick up a few things. I was pretty excited to be able to finally have a theme for the bathrooms. A didn't really like anything I suggested, they were "too girly" so we had to compromise. I'm actually surprised and love what we compromised on. I just wanna go back and get the rest of the accessories that go with the theme.

Little does he realize the guest bathroom there will be no compromising! LOL. 

So while we were at sonic we decided that we would go to Ulta. I was so excited!!!! I've done good and haven't bought polish in a month. I was gonna be good and only get one thing, that was until I realized the epic sale they had!!! 

$10.17 for all of this!!!

Screw couponing for food, I will coupon and hit the sales for polish!!! Now it's a definite I'm going to have to get another helmer for all my polish. So I'm thinking what I'll do is get a piece of wood as well and make a polish desk. 

The moment I found out A made Staff I started to search for ALS (Airman Leadership School) Graduation dresses. I found one online that I fell in love with. But let's face it even though we might have found the perfect dress we will still look. So I told A that we should go into Dress Barn and of course he was like I thought you already found a dress. Anyways, I tried on 5 dresses, until I heard the angels sing the moment I put on the dress we got. It is perfect!!!! It's also something I don't normally like, but it fits so well. 

Obviously a different bra lol. So I figured I will get accessories to match and wear my black Steve Madden heels. I am so in love with it! I couldn't be more happier with the choice I made.

Since I get my stuff back tomorrow and no longer have to blog from the app (which I feel should have the same functions, but that's a whole other topic) I will actually be able to have links again and my original signature back :)

PCSing top 10 list

So I figured since it's PCS season and I'm pretty much in the last stages of PCSing (still waiting for our stuff) that with all the research and googling I did I would give you a top 10 list in my book.

1. Don’t forget to take pictures before, during, and after the PCS.  For 1, you need to take pictures of your valuable items before the movers pack them up. Take the camera with you, your gonna want to take pics of these memories. 

2. When traveling with children, don’t forget to have baby wipes, antibacterial gel, a change of clothes for everyone in the family, entertainment, food, drinks, toys and gadgets, a cell phone charger, a sense of humor, a whole lot of patience.

3.  Don’t wait until you reach your final destination to research the area you will soon be calling home. 

4.  Don’t decline offers to help. This is no time to prove how skilled you are at multitasking.

5. Don’t hold your breath that your shipments will arrive on the estimated arrival date you were given.  They won’t. So be prepared for long hotel stays, picnics on the floor, and elevator music while you sit on hold with the personal property office.

6. Don’t leave things lying around your house that you don’t want packed. The movers can’t read your mind.  If you don’t want your underwear packed, hide it in your suitcase. If you don’t want the diapers packed, put them in your car. If you don’t want to find a trash can filled with trash on the other end, make sure all garbage is at the curb.  If you can’t find a place to hide stuff? Post-It notes with big X’s.  Even movers in foreign countries know that that means hands-off.

7. Don’t let friends see you off on departure day. It’s just too hard. Say “goodbye” and shed your tears the day before. Then make a clean getaway on departure day. You can’t make a fresh start with mascara dripping down your face.

8. Don’t expect your husband to be there to help. Whether he misses the pack-out or the pack-in or the travel in between, you should prepare yourself to deal with any and all portions of the PCS by yourself. But that’s no problem. After all, you’re a MilSpouse. You’re used to doing things on your own by now, right?

9. Don’t be too hard on yourself. PCS’ing is stressful, and exhausting, and frustrating and makes you want to poke your eyes out with a fork. You’ll forget to pack something that should have been packed. You’ll get lost the second you pull away from the airport.  But it happens. Life goes on. And you’ll have a funny story to break the ice with the new people you meet at your next duty station.

10. Don’t panic! I promise you’ll reach your destination in one piece, even if your grandmother’s china doesn’t.

This list can go on forever!!! Every PCS you do chances are your list will get longer and longer. 

I made it

After a full day of travel Roo and I landed safely in Spokane. Roo did amazing the whole way, I was so proud of him!! I am so glad that our little family is whole again.

We got the keys to our new house Friday and I am so in love with it!!! We get our stuff on the 17th (I am so ready to start making our house a home). 

We have a dog park literally across the street from us, so we took the furbabies to it yesterday.  They had so much fun there. There is a hydrant that they painted like a firedog. It is the cutest thing ever!! 

I have been looking at paint swatches, we were told that we could paint the basement and not have to paint it back when time comes for us to PCS again. 

I even signed up for a canning class the housing office is putting on and I am so excited. Some of the ladies on the spouse page signed up for it to so I'm excited to start to get to know people. I'm even thinking about inviting the ladies to a wine and paint thing. 

Almost There

A made it to WA safe and sound on friday. Yesterday A went and saw our new house!!! Yay!!! I am so in love with it!!!!

He goes on friday to get the keys in the morning. Roo and I will be there later in the afternoon!!! i am so ready for our little family to be together again!!!!

Speaking of Roo, he has learned how to hide under the bed! It is so beyond cute so I cant really get mad at him. 

My grandmom came into town yesterday to help me get he house (that we have now) inspection ready. Tomorrow we turn in the keys and we will officially be done with Andrews!!!!!!

4th of july

Recently, Alex and Amanda where holding a blog contest to win a head band. Some how I managed to win this amazing head band from Love Sewn Together. Also if you havent figured out by now i am totally in love with Privity Boutique, so the moment I was this shirt I HAD to have it!!!! Go on judge me for going full blown festive!!!

In case y'all missed it my daddy is a fireman, so of course for the 4th he had fireworks stand-by, so I tagged along. It was actually nice and fun. It was at the local baseball stadium and they were having a small fair there as well. My brother brought my niece to see us, so of course I got Munchie(thats what i call her) Selfies

So since daddy was on the stand-by team I got to see the fireworks from a view I have never experienced. 

This was the first actual major holiday without mama, that was hard!!!! She loved to be Patriotic and the whole holiday in general. Its gonna be a process to "reprogram" my mind to experience all of these family holidays without the one person that loved these the most. 

Moving day (well sort of)

So today is the day that A, Duke and Belle hit the road for our new home. This alone has me in tears. But it's only 11 days until we are all back together so it will be ok. 

The movers are here (yes it changed again), they are packing today and picking up tomorrow. So that gives me more time to get the house inspection ready vs having to rush. We all know movers leave a mess when they are done plus housing has a huge list of things they want done. 

Roo is all over the place trying to "help" the movers or so he thinks, so I had to give him a greenie to distract him lol. 

My blogs will be very bland most of the time without links or even my signature since I am posting from the blogger app. I will try to blog from my daddy's computer when I have time. So please bare with me. 

This past weekend I said bye to the family I nannied for and I am going to miss my Q bug so much!!!!! I can't wait to see how big he's gotten when we come back for Christmas! We also said goodbye to A's parents, my grandparents and aunt and uncle (A said bye to my daddy as well). Roo and I will be staying with him until we fly out. My grandmother is also gonna come help me with last minute things and make sure the housing office doesn't try to screw us over. 

I'm hoping from this point on everything goes as planned cuz up until now nothing has. The fact that we are being split up durring this still irritates me, but it is what it is.