Thursday was very hard!!! The day started out with a doctors appt and then a session with my counselor. I cried more this session than I have at others. I realized that not only did I loose my mama I lost my best friend. So in turn I am literally mourning the loss of 2 very important people. I also have to come to terms with being ok with the fact that I will never heal. That a piece of me will always be missing.
After all my appointments were finaly done; Lisa, Julia and I went out to lunch. So that I wouldn't be home alone while A was working. That's right around the time that I could my mood starting to change. Even though I'm around people that I know love and support me, I still have a habit to want to hide it. Although I'm pretty sure they realized it when I started to get quiet while we were at the store. On the way hope Shake It Off came on the radio and I can't help myself anytime I hear that song I dance. So that let me escape everything for a moment.
After dinner it was time to go and light the lanterns. I am so beyond grateful for the people that came out to show support. Lighting the lanters was such a good idea. It actually lifted away some of my pain (not all of it of course) but I was able to breathe a little easier.
The moon was so bright as well, I like to think that it was mama helping us light the sky.
After doing the lanterns we went to a friends house to hang out. We had ice cream sundays and painted. This is my painting, I found it very fitting for the day.
THANK YOU SO MUCH TO EVERONE THAT CAME OUT AND SUPPORTED ME.
You are so brave for sharing your tribulation with all of us in this way. I hope you find peace through it and are able to help others through your story.
ReplyDeletethank you. its helped alot to write about it on here. if i help just one person i will call it a success. i just want people to know that they arent alone that grief is a universal language.
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